When Will I Ever Learn...

As the title of this post suggests, yes, I just ask myself that question yesterday. Well, I have finally completed my essay which is an assessment of Authorship and Writing. The module is notoriously known as a killer module, and I've got to admit that it definitely, unquestionably, without a doubt (too much use of synonyms?) is a KILLER! I have to confess that due to my procrastination, it led me to that question in the title. Again, a late submission... AGAIN! Sarah, Sarah, when will you ever learn? Well, i just have to receive the penalty then, which is being increased to a deduction of 5% T-T It is a consequence which I have to accept because of my actions ): It's too late for regrets now; as the saying goes, 'no point crying over spilled milk'. Though I can just kick myself in the a**!!!

I don't know what happened to me over the weekend. I was rather moody, so just laid aside my essay thinking that I can handle it. As it turns out... NO! So yeah, back to my weekend. I had no idea why I was moody; I shouldn't have because service was great, my mom attended it for the second time (an answer to my prayer), my brother was back for the weekend, and we had new friends during cell group meeting. So why? I hate it when my mood precedes me. Perhaps it's just one of those days... Or were my hormones in domination? =\

Yeah, we had new friends, but I have to confess, I have forgotten their names >< (how loving of me). I am just bad in remembering Chinese names... Jian something... =.= Anyways, it wasn't a normal cgm, instead we had potluck and watched X-Men Origins: Wolverin! Wahahaha... The power of piracy =P It was hilarious though, as it wasn't completely edited, so we could see the ropes attached to the actors when they had to perform stunts. And some graphics were still in draft form xD But it was interesting to see how the movie is before editing. All hail to professional editing! Hahas. In conjunction with my mood over the weekend, I felt distant and detached from my cell members and I absolutely detest that as being closer to them is one of my desires and prayers! What was wrong with me... God, please give me self-control... Speaking of God, I have that bad feel of monotony in my spiritual life, again... Draw me close to you Lord...

Argh... I shan't dwell in the past nor past mistakes, instead look forward! Postivity, Sarah, and optimism ((: I watched a movie in cable last night with my dad (gasps! he doesn't share much similar taste with me in popular culture), I enjoyed the moment with him and the movie entirely! I fell in love with the music and the plot. It is an Indie-film (in which I am a big fan of, as they are not mainstream, thus not Hollywoodised), set in Ireland. The title is Once; it is more than a simple boy-meets-girl scenario, the ending is not a happy one (no one died, just that they did not end up together which is appalling as their chemistry is great). It's about a musician so lots of music were involved. Man, the songs are awesome! Those kind of songs along the line of Damien Rice, which I adore! One of the song is "Falling Slowly", and I just can't seem to stop listening to it. The music and lyrics are beautiful ((: Here's the link of it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FkFB8f8bzbY

Falling Slowly
Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova
Once OST

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

Yes! Back to blogging again! Finally. Hahas.

Banyak, banyak happenings (: Can't talk about each of them in detail; just too much to say, or rather, type! *such a hassle* =P So yeah, went to KL last weekend to visit my uncle. Thank God that he's much better now. It was a great time to finally meet my Uncle Peter after 21 years and Uncle Leo for almost 16 o.O They all like went: "Awww Sarah, all grown up! You were a tiny baby in my arms!" Aww... hahas. Reunions are always great. Plus, caught up with my cousins, especially Anastasia. She has grown alot prettier ^^ Also, did some shopping! Wahahaha. A necessary activity for me whenever I'm back to my hometown =P Also, am proud of my brother, he's doing really well in his studies as a steward; he's been scoring A's!

Was soooo happy that Jenny joined me and my cell for service and fellowship! Hope to integrate her into the cell very soon! Holy Spirit, help! Well, I was quite discouraged at first that I wasn't able to bring friends to this Easter season. But, like what Rouxin said, there's always time and season for everyone to encounter God. I was really blessed by our 30-minute phone call. We chatted many things beyond cg and God and it felt great! Not that I don't like my cg! Haha. Just yeah, I desire to grow my friendship with Rou too, other than serving her (: "Relationship preceeds ministry", something that I keep in mind and strive for. But, amazingly, my mom came to the Saturday service!!! Wow, that made it all worth it! So happy that she took the first step to come. She enjoyed it and felt God again. I pray that she'll continue to come week after week, integrate into a cell group and make friends whom she is able to have fun with! I'm just overjoyed and can't thank God and Holy Spirit enough for answering my prayer. One item that I can tick in my prayer book ((: Praise God!

Additionally, I got another tuition assignment! Yay! Thank God again! More open heaven and His blessings (:

What else, what else... Oh, leader prayer meeting was awesome! I was trememdously blessed. I felt God so strongly.. Suddenly got reminded of Pastor Phil's words: "when was the last time you got swept away by God's presence?" Yeah, that was the time; and more to come. May it never cease (: So yes, back to Easter, the drama was beyond great! Two-thumbs up indeed! They really outdone themselves! What else... Oh yes, just returned from dinner with W331-ians. It is always very fun when we gather together and share about things. It was great seeing Sam Chew and JH gor after what felt like ages! Miss their humour. Haha.

This week will be tedious... I've got two essays to complete... By His grace and strenght! By the way, this is one of the the few songs which has been stuck in my head and something which I've been listening to over and over. One is Love Story by Taylor Swift. It's cute and girly and catchy. Laughs. Another is by Miley Cyrus. I know she is not known for a great singer, but I really like the lyrics of the song; the words are meaningful and expressive.

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa