Four months has passed since my last post. It was the beginning of SOT, and now the end is coming soon. It feels surreal... Five more weeks till I am an SOT 2010 Graduate ((: It's going to be bittersweet; but more bitter. Haha. I'm going to miss being in the church auditorium everyday; to be in His presence. But I have to move on... Bring what I've learned and put into practice. The past months have been amazing... God is so real. The visions and the revelations I have received were mindblowing. On top of that, His assurance of His love and never leaving me is even more tangible. It is so easy to feel God now - everywhere! Afterall, we are to be a carrier of His presence.

Even though the month of June was one of the worst times in my life, it was a period of moulding and testing. Now that I am 80% out of the wilderness, I have emerged stronger, transformed and renewed! Just like Job, it is after being tested that he emerged as gold. Dr A.R. Bernard too said, "purification happens through a crisis." After that period of crises, I have moved on to the next level in my character, and my Spiritman has grown.

Pastor Mike Connell's week was memorable and life-changing... All my past hurts and pains are healed and immediately, I felt so released. I am now a new and improved Sarah (: That was definitely a highlight of SOT.

I am leaving for mission trip to Kota Kinabalu tomorrow! I'm so excited and glad that I will be going with most of my teammates. Afterall, I can only go to a mission trip with my SOT teammates once in my life. Furthermore, it is going to be awesome! I feel that, I've given the opportunity to serve so much and this really increases my capacity. One surprising thing is my ability to create the skit! It's really all thanks to Holy Spirit for inspiration and creativity. I'm proud of my teammates for their commitment and acting skills! They are doing well (: Apart from that, I'm going to lead P&W, testimony and offering message for cgm on Friday night. On Saturday for the youth service, I'm one of the frontliner for P&W, and going to sing a song item after the skit, in conjunction with the theme... The song item is another thing which caught me off guard. Truly, God gives the promotion, recognition... As we yield ourselves with our talents, no matter how inept we may be, He will use us, and He will empower us. I sincerely pray that my vocals will be so anointed and touch many lives through the song. On Sunday, I will be leading P&W again for the Filipino Fellowship. Sounds like a packed weekend! But, I'm going to enjoy myself and believe that God will use me mightily! This shall be my first mission trip among many more to come! ((:

Oh, I had an interview with Key Editions for the position of the Junior Writer. It went well, in my opinion. Throughout the process, I felt God's peace and wisdom in me. I do hope that it will be the stepping stone to my career in writing. If not, a better one will come. By faith, I will get my dream job before mid-August, so that I will be able to share my wonderful testimony during SOT Graduation Ceremony (: That will be one of my desires coming to pass (:


Somehow, there's still a void within me... Lord, please take this away and deliver me... You are bigger than any problems and any situations... I believe that You can solve this... All things work together for good unto those who love You...

I went for the Back-up Vocalist audition last week and surprisingly, I got into the second round! That really surprised me! But I wasn't selected for that ministry... Well, a tiny-winy bit disappointed but it is to serve God and not for me to flaunt myself on stage, so it isn't God's calling for me. Well, it was a great experience and getting into the second round boosted my confidence level. It's okay, I shall keep on serving God in choir and W480 (:

Had our inaugural Team 29 outing yesterday!! Not many people turned up, but still we had lots of fun! It's nice to have a bunch of teammates who have similar craziness and can flow. Hahaha. I hope that I can get to know them even more ((:

God gave me a divine revelation today, and it is mind-blowing! I pray hard that I will make Him proud as I yield myself to His will, and that it shall come to pass!

Miracle #3
God has answered my prayers!!! I received the sponsorship for my SOT fees!! Now I am just left with another $600 till August! God keeps on amazes me... I remember all the tears I shed during prayer meetings over my financial burdens. My vision for 2010 has come to passed! I can't express how thankful I am to God. I'm going to keep on sowing and giving! I believe that more other form of blessings will come! Particularly the healing of my eczema, which is already happening (: All glory to God!!!!

Miracle #2
Another love offering of $350 for my April's fees... It was such an unexpected blessing... She is truly an answer to my prayers and such a loving friend ^^

Every month throughout SOT, I WILL experience a financial breakthrough/miracle!

Miracle #1 - Two fold of my building fund for March
March 2010: an unforgettable $400 love offering from my beloved best friends Dor and Ting... I love them to pieces... I feel so blessed to have such generous and loving friends which God has placed in my life.

More miracles to come... And I can't wait to give to April's building fund (:

SOT 2010

Yes, it is day two of School of Theology 2010! I am part of the biggest cohort of students in the history of SOT - 691 intakes! Yesterday was fun! Met my teammates who are mainly from WYZ zone and they are nice and fun people. Well, unfortunately our team, Team 29, did not win the orientation game challenge, but we came up with a good cheer at the last minute and we were so enthusiastic. Hahaa, we have a creative team leader. I hope that true friendships can really be formed through SOT (:

With alot of time on our hands before the Youth Meeting, we played Sequence!! Hahahaa. We shall spread Sequence-ism out of W452/W480 and into SOT Team 29! Lols. After that, rushed down to Expo and served choir (: I have to say though, it was the most tiring ever! We really jumped... in heels! =O Haha. Nonetheless, it was great serving God. Pastor then gave an impactful message on us rising up to the next level and taking more ownership of CHC as we will be the next generation taking over all the pastors and founders of the church. He was really urgent and I just felt the burden to be part of the people to carry on the legacy of CHC and even raise it up to another level. Though I may have imperfections and I have no direction (for now), I am willing to lay down my life for His kingdom's cause. It took me awhile to wrestle with the Holy Spirit before responding to the calling of full-time ministry. The presence was so strong and my ultra-thick make-up was smudged horribly with non-stop flowing of tears! After Pastor prayed, what he said was really true to my situation: "If you hate your job and what you are doing, and long for God's presence everyday, then full-time ministry is your calling." My heart was pierced by that sentence and now I just know that I want to be a labourer for God. I don't know how or when, but I know that my destiny shall be revealed soon, especially during/after SOT.

I experienced Holy Laughter for the first time today!! Or rather, a full-fledged one. A minor one happened during Asia Conference two years ago. Wow, it was like nothing I ever experienced before. A sudden overwhelming joy and assurance of peace just came over me and it just begin. The funny thing is, I was tearing at the same time. Haha. As the Chinese saying goes, "ku xiao bu ti" xD Pastor Derek really ministered to us in the Spirit. Then, it just occured to me; my desire of being in JW auditorium, immersed in God's presence in the morning has come to passed. I know and I know that my financial situation is a tiny problem which my Heavenly Dad will solve.

Day three of SOT is tomorrow and I am already having slight fever and sore throat. Argh!!! I bind you darn germs! Go away!!! I shall be healed by tonight!!

In Your House

"I have found my home, I have found my purpose..."

And our new home is.... SUNTEC SINGAPORE INTERNATIONAL CONVENTION AND EXHIBITION CENTRE!!! =O CHC has a stake of 80%! Wow... We have finally gotten our promise land. I'm so excited about giving a portion of my finances to God's house. It's really out of love and taking ownership. I fulfilled my pledge for this month even though it may seem like a crazy amount, but who else do I live for but You; who else do I honour but You. I know that as I honour God, He will honour me back and indeed, as His daughter, I have His inheritance! I will not live in poverty or lack! All the money problems, go away!! D=

SOT in 5 days.... ((: My heart just beats faster at the thought of it...

I Believe, I believe!

12 more days to SOT....! It's such a mixed feeling... I definitely am so looking forward to it, and can't wait to be in the presence of God everyday (: To have encounter with Him, receive revelations. I have even listed down the things I want to achieve out of SOT and I'm sure that my visions shall come to pass. Though my finances may seem like it is impossible for me to pay the fees at all, but I confess that my God is my Jehovah Jireh and He shall supply all my needs! Indeed, He is a God who never fails, never disappoints. I can sense deep in my veins and soul and my breakthrough will come and that He will do a miracle for the $1.8k. I'm going to give to building fund next Saturday, and I know that as I sacrifice and give unto God's house out of love and obedience, going to choir practice week after week and serving in choir, He shall reward me and pour out such blessings that I can't contain them. Faith is the substance of things not seen, and without faith, it is impossible to please God. So yes, I am living by faith and not fear. All fears and worries, begone from me! You have no power over me! But God, He can do wondrous things. For He can do exceedingly abundantly in all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us. And I believe that His grace is sufficient for me. Not forgetting that all things work together for good unto those who love Him and to those who are called according to His purpose.

Heavenly Father, you know that I love you and You are the reason that I'm laying aside my life for the next six months; it is all for your kingdom's cause. For it is Your will for me to go this year, and let all things work together for good.... (:

I love You no matter what, and I will be still and know You are God.

I'm 22!

It has been 4 days since I turned 22! As a 21-year-old, I did not feel much difference... But I have to admit that this year, I could feel some changes. I can sense that being 22 onwards, I will take on bigger responsibilities, especially this being the year that I will officially say goodbye to being a student and be a full-fledged working ADULT! I always jokingly, or rather, semi-seriously whine about growing older; however, now, I embrace that fact and I look forward to sclae to greater heights, overcome challenges and aim to accomplish the purposes God has already planned for my life... I am excited about being an adult! I am no longer a child, so got to leave my childish ways behind. Moreover, I'm sure God will mould me and reveal to me my destiny through SOT; I can't emphasised any further on how excited I am ((:


22: I will have double the annointing, double the happiness, blessings and be doubly pretty! =D

February is coming to an end in a week and a half's time! Looking back at the past month since the year began, and the goals I have set in the beginning of 2010, it was really a period of trial and me running away from God's calling.

Now that I decided to obey His calling and just go ahead to SOT by faith, I know deep down that it is the right thing no matter how impossible things may seem. But truly, God creates miracles and He makes the impossible, possible. My boss allows me to work on a half-day basis for six months! Furthermore, things are getting better; I am getting busier and even begin writing articles for his new internet marketing business. Indeed, not only I have an income while in SOT, I will have a job that I enjoy (: Those articles can even be part of my portfolio! I'm just so excited and I know in my heart that the next six months will be one of the best times in my life!

Yes, I will be stretched -- physically, mentally and emotionally. But it will be all worth it. I'm sure that when I graduate from SOT, I will emerge stronger and victorious. Through His strength and grace, I will be able to conquer both work and school, along with SOT. I keep visioning myself being such a testimony and a vessel for Him to showforth His glory (:

Tis the season of sowing [and reaping]! Building fund in a week's time! I am really looking forward to it (: Financial hindrances, go away!!!!! No matter what, I WILL and WANT to fulfill my vow! I will keep giving no matter what and I WILL reap a bountiful harvest in no time! I just sense in my heart that blessings after blessings will come. All the desires of my heart will come true and my dream job awaits in September 2010.

Turning 22 in 3 days time... Such a pivotal moment and a turning point... It shall be the beginning of a great destiny and journey (:

I lay down my life for You... One word, and I will follow.