Four months has passed since my last post. It was the beginning of SOT, and now the end is coming soon. It feels surreal... Five more weeks till I am an SOT 2010 Graduate ((: It's going to be bittersweet; but more bitter. Haha. I'm going to miss being in the church auditorium everyday; to be in His presence. But I have to move on... Bring what I've learned and put into practice. The past months have been amazing... God is so real. The visions and the revelations I have received were mindblowing. On top of that, His assurance of His love and never leaving me is even more tangible. It is so easy to feel God now - everywhere! Afterall, we are to be a carrier of His presence.

Even though the month of June was one of the worst times in my life, it was a period of moulding and testing. Now that I am 80% out of the wilderness, I have emerged stronger, transformed and renewed! Just like Job, it is after being tested that he emerged as gold. Dr A.R. Bernard too said, "purification happens through a crisis." After that period of crises, I have moved on to the next level in my character, and my Spiritman has grown.

Pastor Mike Connell's week was memorable and life-changing... All my past hurts and pains are healed and immediately, I felt so released. I am now a new and improved Sarah (: That was definitely a highlight of SOT.

I am leaving for mission trip to Kota Kinabalu tomorrow! I'm so excited and glad that I will be going with most of my teammates. Afterall, I can only go to a mission trip with my SOT teammates once in my life. Furthermore, it is going to be awesome! I feel that, I've given the opportunity to serve so much and this really increases my capacity. One surprising thing is my ability to create the skit! It's really all thanks to Holy Spirit for inspiration and creativity. I'm proud of my teammates for their commitment and acting skills! They are doing well (: Apart from that, I'm going to lead P&W, testimony and offering message for cgm on Friday night. On Saturday for the youth service, I'm one of the frontliner for P&W, and going to sing a song item after the skit, in conjunction with the theme... The song item is another thing which caught me off guard. Truly, God gives the promotion, recognition... As we yield ourselves with our talents, no matter how inept we may be, He will use us, and He will empower us. I sincerely pray that my vocals will be so anointed and touch many lives through the song. On Sunday, I will be leading P&W again for the Filipino Fellowship. Sounds like a packed weekend! But, I'm going to enjoy myself and believe that God will use me mightily! This shall be my first mission trip among many more to come! ((:

Oh, I had an interview with Key Editions for the position of the Junior Writer. It went well, in my opinion. Throughout the process, I felt God's peace and wisdom in me. I do hope that it will be the stepping stone to my career in writing. If not, a better one will come. By faith, I will get my dream job before mid-August, so that I will be able to share my wonderful testimony during SOT Graduation Ceremony (: That will be one of my desires coming to pass (:


Somehow, there's still a void within me... Lord, please take this away and deliver me... You are bigger than any problems and any situations... I believe that You can solve this... All things work together for good unto those who love You...

I went for the Back-up Vocalist audition last week and surprisingly, I got into the second round! That really surprised me! But I wasn't selected for that ministry... Well, a tiny-winy bit disappointed but it is to serve God and not for me to flaunt myself on stage, so it isn't God's calling for me. Well, it was a great experience and getting into the second round boosted my confidence level. It's okay, I shall keep on serving God in choir and W480 (:

Had our inaugural Team 29 outing yesterday!! Not many people turned up, but still we had lots of fun! It's nice to have a bunch of teammates who have similar craziness and can flow. Hahaha. I hope that I can get to know them even more ((:

God gave me a divine revelation today, and it is mind-blowing! I pray hard that I will make Him proud as I yield myself to His will, and that it shall come to pass!

Miracle #3
God has answered my prayers!!! I received the sponsorship for my SOT fees!! Now I am just left with another $600 till August! God keeps on amazes me... I remember all the tears I shed during prayer meetings over my financial burdens. My vision for 2010 has come to passed! I can't express how thankful I am to God. I'm going to keep on sowing and giving! I believe that more other form of blessings will come! Particularly the healing of my eczema, which is already happening (: All glory to God!!!!

Miracle #2
Another love offering of $350 for my April's fees... It was such an unexpected blessing... She is truly an answer to my prayers and such a loving friend ^^

Every month throughout SOT, I WILL experience a financial breakthrough/miracle!

Miracle #1 - Two fold of my building fund for March
March 2010: an unforgettable $400 love offering from my beloved best friends Dor and Ting... I love them to pieces... I feel so blessed to have such generous and loving friends which God has placed in my life.

More miracles to come... And I can't wait to give to April's building fund (:

SOT 2010

Yes, it is day two of School of Theology 2010! I am part of the biggest cohort of students in the history of SOT - 691 intakes! Yesterday was fun! Met my teammates who are mainly from WYZ zone and they are nice and fun people. Well, unfortunately our team, Team 29, did not win the orientation game challenge, but we came up with a good cheer at the last minute and we were so enthusiastic. Hahaa, we have a creative team leader. I hope that true friendships can really be formed through SOT (:

With alot of time on our hands before the Youth Meeting, we played Sequence!! Hahahaa. We shall spread Sequence-ism out of W452/W480 and into SOT Team 29! Lols. After that, rushed down to Expo and served choir (: I have to say though, it was the most tiring ever! We really jumped... in heels! =O Haha. Nonetheless, it was great serving God. Pastor then gave an impactful message on us rising up to the next level and taking more ownership of CHC as we will be the next generation taking over all the pastors and founders of the church. He was really urgent and I just felt the burden to be part of the people to carry on the legacy of CHC and even raise it up to another level. Though I may have imperfections and I have no direction (for now), I am willing to lay down my life for His kingdom's cause. It took me awhile to wrestle with the Holy Spirit before responding to the calling of full-time ministry. The presence was so strong and my ultra-thick make-up was smudged horribly with non-stop flowing of tears! After Pastor prayed, what he said was really true to my situation: "If you hate your job and what you are doing, and long for God's presence everyday, then full-time ministry is your calling." My heart was pierced by that sentence and now I just know that I want to be a labourer for God. I don't know how or when, but I know that my destiny shall be revealed soon, especially during/after SOT.

I experienced Holy Laughter for the first time today!! Or rather, a full-fledged one. A minor one happened during Asia Conference two years ago. Wow, it was like nothing I ever experienced before. A sudden overwhelming joy and assurance of peace just came over me and it just begin. The funny thing is, I was tearing at the same time. Haha. As the Chinese saying goes, "ku xiao bu ti" xD Pastor Derek really ministered to us in the Spirit. Then, it just occured to me; my desire of being in JW auditorium, immersed in God's presence in the morning has come to passed. I know and I know that my financial situation is a tiny problem which my Heavenly Dad will solve.

Day three of SOT is tomorrow and I am already having slight fever and sore throat. Argh!!! I bind you darn germs! Go away!!! I shall be healed by tonight!!

In Your House

"I have found my home, I have found my purpose..."

And our new home is.... SUNTEC SINGAPORE INTERNATIONAL CONVENTION AND EXHIBITION CENTRE!!! =O CHC has a stake of 80%! Wow... We have finally gotten our promise land. I'm so excited about giving a portion of my finances to God's house. It's really out of love and taking ownership. I fulfilled my pledge for this month even though it may seem like a crazy amount, but who else do I live for but You; who else do I honour but You. I know that as I honour God, He will honour me back and indeed, as His daughter, I have His inheritance! I will not live in poverty or lack! All the money problems, go away!! D=

SOT in 5 days.... ((: My heart just beats faster at the thought of it...

I Believe, I believe!

12 more days to SOT....! It's such a mixed feeling... I definitely am so looking forward to it, and can't wait to be in the presence of God everyday (: To have encounter with Him, receive revelations. I have even listed down the things I want to achieve out of SOT and I'm sure that my visions shall come to pass. Though my finances may seem like it is impossible for me to pay the fees at all, but I confess that my God is my Jehovah Jireh and He shall supply all my needs! Indeed, He is a God who never fails, never disappoints. I can sense deep in my veins and soul and my breakthrough will come and that He will do a miracle for the $1.8k. I'm going to give to building fund next Saturday, and I know that as I sacrifice and give unto God's house out of love and obedience, going to choir practice week after week and serving in choir, He shall reward me and pour out such blessings that I can't contain them. Faith is the substance of things not seen, and without faith, it is impossible to please God. So yes, I am living by faith and not fear. All fears and worries, begone from me! You have no power over me! But God, He can do wondrous things. For He can do exceedingly abundantly in all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us. And I believe that His grace is sufficient for me. Not forgetting that all things work together for good unto those who love Him and to those who are called according to His purpose.

Heavenly Father, you know that I love you and You are the reason that I'm laying aside my life for the next six months; it is all for your kingdom's cause. For it is Your will for me to go this year, and let all things work together for good.... (:

I love You no matter what, and I will be still and know You are God.

I'm 22!

It has been 4 days since I turned 22! As a 21-year-old, I did not feel much difference... But I have to admit that this year, I could feel some changes. I can sense that being 22 onwards, I will take on bigger responsibilities, especially this being the year that I will officially say goodbye to being a student and be a full-fledged working ADULT! I always jokingly, or rather, semi-seriously whine about growing older; however, now, I embrace that fact and I look forward to sclae to greater heights, overcome challenges and aim to accomplish the purposes God has already planned for my life... I am excited about being an adult! I am no longer a child, so got to leave my childish ways behind. Moreover, I'm sure God will mould me and reveal to me my destiny through SOT; I can't emphasised any further on how excited I am ((:


22: I will have double the annointing, double the happiness, blessings and be doubly pretty! =D

February is coming to an end in a week and a half's time! Looking back at the past month since the year began, and the goals I have set in the beginning of 2010, it was really a period of trial and me running away from God's calling.

Now that I decided to obey His calling and just go ahead to SOT by faith, I know deep down that it is the right thing no matter how impossible things may seem. But truly, God creates miracles and He makes the impossible, possible. My boss allows me to work on a half-day basis for six months! Furthermore, things are getting better; I am getting busier and even begin writing articles for his new internet marketing business. Indeed, not only I have an income while in SOT, I will have a job that I enjoy (: Those articles can even be part of my portfolio! I'm just so excited and I know in my heart that the next six months will be one of the best times in my life!

Yes, I will be stretched -- physically, mentally and emotionally. But it will be all worth it. I'm sure that when I graduate from SOT, I will emerge stronger and victorious. Through His strength and grace, I will be able to conquer both work and school, along with SOT. I keep visioning myself being such a testimony and a vessel for Him to showforth His glory (:

Tis the season of sowing [and reaping]! Building fund in a week's time! I am really looking forward to it (: Financial hindrances, go away!!!!! No matter what, I WILL and WANT to fulfill my vow! I will keep giving no matter what and I WILL reap a bountiful harvest in no time! I just sense in my heart that blessings after blessings will come. All the desires of my heart will come true and my dream job awaits in September 2010.

Turning 22 in 3 days time... Such a pivotal moment and a turning point... It shall be the beginning of a great destiny and journey (:

I lay down my life for You... One word, and I will follow.

Thankful...

Today has been such a wonderful day and a day which shows how evident God is and His faithfulness. I obtained a job interview for the position of a Junior PR Executive at a modelling/talent scouting company!! It's the job which I was aiming for (: I really need to be more well prepared this time but I believe that my angels and Holy Spirit will be there ((: Secondly, I got into choir ministry! I feel so glad that I can have another awesome platform to serve God in. I know with all of my heart that I'll end 2009 with a bang!! And 2010 will have even unimganiable breakthroughs and blessings!

A Random List of Occurances

Here I go again, blogging at work. I have just finished a task which my boss assigned and awhile later, I went, "err... now what??". Sigh... It's okay, I'm still believing for a fantastic career which I will have by Feb 2010!

1. In the area of my job hunting, I had an interview last Tuesday for the position of Marketing & Communications Coordinator at a very prominent Intellectual Property firm (whose name I shall not disclose). I was so excited when I received the call to head down for the interview. But when I got closer to the office building, I felt really intimidated and nervous. When I entered the building, then the office overlooking the breathtaking view of the CBD area, it dawned upon me that this it is; a REAL job! A jobscope which is one of my dream jobs. Before the interview, I had to do a test which consisted checking discrepancies, spotting spelling/format errors and summarising a letter into an internal memo. Within me I wanted to scream and run! But I knew that I wasn't alone in the room; that my Helper was there. By faith and relying on His wisdom, I completed it. I waited for about 10 or 15 mins for the interview with the Marketing Manager. It was probably the longest 10 mins in my life (well, so far). She was nice and all but quite demanding and did not seem to be impressed with me not asking her much questions. But I honestly did not have any question! Like geez! Haha. Oh well, yes, I could have done better and it was undeniably the most difficult interview I ever been to, however it was a great experience and now I know how an interview for a higher/executive level is. It is all up to God's perfect will whether will I get that job. Believing in His promise, I know that I will attain my dream job very, very soon! I can feel it! =D

2. What else... oh, I have been Christmas shopping and really, it is so much BETTER to give than to receive! This job has been a financial blessing to me (and I believe next year will be more!) so it feels amazing to be able to give gifts to my family and my close friends! It is really a feeling which I can't describe! I hope that they will like my gift ((: Speaking of giving, I felt such a sense of relief and joy when I gave my mom, for the first time, an amount to contribute into my education loan (: God has been good to me and He will be even better next year!

3. Candlelight service was beautiful as always ((: Pastor Kong preached a great message fill with many miraculous testimonies to show how real God is and those testimonies really built up my faith level in believing in the healing of my eczema and restoration of my dental problems. Indeed, if God can heal cancer and diseases which doctors give up hope on, my eczema, being such a minute skin problem, is indeed possible with my Jehovah Rapha ^^ When we lit up the candles, the auditorium was just so beautiful and you could just sense the peace of God overflowing. I was immensed in His presence especially when singing O Holy Night and Silent Night, Holy Night that I did not take a picture. Haha. I just did not want the feeling to discontinue.

4. Sunday's Christmas party between W480 and W452 was a blast!!!! I have to say, Cindy, Rou and Suryanto are great Game Masters and event planners! The forfeit was madness! The losing team (which I was in, sigh! We were leading initially!) had to be dunked plates of shaving cream. While defending our grounds on not to be dunked, Cindy just charged and smashed the plate on my face!!!! Oh man!!! That was uber unexpected!! I remember I kept screaming, "CINDY, I'M NOT A GUY!!!". Lols!! Because girls were supposed to be dunked at our shoulders. A few seconds later, a battlefield was formed and everyone ended up with shaving cream all over them. There goes all the girls' make-up and hairdos. The cleaning up part was horrible! The hotel room was in a mess! It looked like it had been vandalised! Thank goodness we managed to clean them off. After that, we brainstormed for our drama. We got an open theme. Initially we were happy but then we had so many ideas that we did not know which to choose. Suryanto helped us and we decided to do a parody of the Nativity Story =P HAHAHA. Oops... Seems liek no reverence for God =PP It was soo fun!! From nothing, all of us 'impromptued' and managed to act out a funny drama. The rest apparently liked it as they laughed at funny scenes and at me! I think I was just clowning around being a silly narrator xD I loved the part when Guo Lei went: "wo she ye shu!" HAHAHA. Unforgettable! The other teams were hilarious!! Not to mention, explicit as well! The fairy tales were like rated versions! Haha. Malcolm's team really outshone the rest! Their's was fantastic! It was really such a fun night and it ended with gift exchange. So funny, my gift received the highest bid of 14 votes kudos to my copywriting skills!! Wahahahahahaha... Oops, self-praise xP The most funny was I got Josh's gift! And it was a star lantern............................. o.O

5. In conclusion to this random list, I am soo looking forward to Christmas!! Woots! My brother has just arrived today. It has been a month since we last saw him. Can't wait to spend time with him (:

Well... Off to meet Dorothy in town now to do a bit more of Christmas shopping and help her to choose a fabulous Ed Hardy shirt!! =D

Oh gosh, it just hit me when I entered into my office that it is 1 Dec! It is officially the last month of 2009. November just seem to drift by like it has never even existed. Then again, I just feel that everything in my life is in fast forward mode ever since my exams ended. I guess it is due to the mundanity of going to work and doing things which I do not enjoy. It has been a great job while I was studying and I really do thank God for this opportunity and having such a flexible and understanding boss. But the jobscope is really not challenging and not of my interests. Now that I have had enough rest and play-time since the end of my semester, I am beginning to feel unproductive and unfruitful. I actually want to start writing essays and conduct research in the library o.O The workaholic in me is bursting in agony! I also feel that my brain seems to be melting away... Or what's left of it. Laughs... Oh well, I'm just going to endure and perservere on. I'm sure that there is a purpose for me in this company, and hope that I'll have more breakthroughs in it and receive a pay increment (:

Still pondering on the fact that there is only 30 and a half-day left to 2010, it just gets me thinking on my achievements and the goals that I set in the beginning of the year. There are still a few stuff that I haven't fulfill (yet, hopefully) but one thing which I am proud of is how much God has been evident in my life, how much my love for Him has grown and how much I have done for Him. I have grown a lot closer to my members, something which, looking back with a smirk on my face, was such an impossible struggle for me. But now, they are the people whom I look forward to weekly, people whom I can depend on; especially Rouxin. She has always been there for me throughout the year, imparting me and though some discipleship was hard (particularly on leading Praise =P), I know that it is out of the love she has for me for putting in so much effort. Indeed, she has been one of my blessings in 2009. Nonetheless, I have so, so, so much more to learn from her, especially in this trying time for W480. But fear not, we are people of faith and I am sure that the vision for W480 will come to pass, with the amount of prayers and fasts we have put.

For the rest of the year, I will definitely step up in my ministry, focus on growth, to go to work with a positive attitude and continue to pray for a breakthrough for my eczema, which I confess WILL heal by the second week of Dec 09 ((: It is one of my many dreams which I have written on my offering envelope during last week's impactful service led by Pastor Kong. I gave my biggest offering yet and I believe that it will release miracles and my Jehovah Rapha will grant me my dream.

Choir audition is tonight!! I finally gathered up the courage to go for it as I should serve more. May God's annointing be upon me... It will be another awesome ministry to be in (:

It's Pa's birthday today! He turns 57 this year... Hopefully he'll be wiser with age. Hahas. He has been improving and th changes in him are visible (after YEARS of prayer). Bought him a pair of shades and he really liked it and PTL, it suited him! It feels great to have the income so that I'm able to bless others, especially my parents (: It felt even more amazing when I gave my biggest amount of tithe this month and my offerings have increased! Can't wait to fulfill my building fund too!

Another thing to look forward to is my brother, who is finally coming back after what feels like ages~ It has been about two and a half months since he came back. Can't wait to catch up with him! And maybe have a movie with him. He's always my ultimate movie-buff-buddy (((:

So will have a good weekend with my family to anticipate. But it really saddens me that I can't attend cgm tonight ): Can't wait to spend more time with my cell soon after this agonising semester is over~! And not to mention the things to do in my connect group. Three more weeks to go! D= Oh man, I really ought to prep for my revisions; but I get so tired and brain-dead after work >< God, strengthen me!

Went to visit the doctor yesterday as my eczema flare up again due to the weather and shellfish T-T It's really a burden in my life and a suffering since I was... 16? ): However, I STILL have faith in my Jehovah Rapha and like what Pastor preached, there is ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel and I WILL walk out of this valley stronger and completely healed!

All in all........ I feel happy..... ^^ God knows why (:

I finally visited my blog site...

So much has happened since July. A new semester, a new job and growth in my spiritual life. Now in October, my semester is ending soon and I am confirmed as a staff with my company. Looking back, I did well for this semester and learnt alot in my workplace. But... It was such a struggle... Juggling work and school... I am so tired... I am now so worried about my assignments which are due extremely soon... My exams in November... As for work, I need more breakthroughs; I want to do beyond what I'm doing now. Spiritual life... I think I can do better... I can just hear Holy Spirit speaking to me about making more sacrifices. I used to be excited for morning prayer meetings, but now, yes, I am still very much excited but my flesh just cave in. Had to work for 12 hours for the past four days for my company's event. Now, I just feel so drained. I want to be swept away by God's presence again; I want that fresh touch; I desperately need God... I miss my cell group. Just when I'm given more opportunities to serve, my classes are in the way.

Just FOUR more weeks... Four more weeks and it's over!

In addition, one more trouble is on my mind... Insecurity begone~! And am I able to fulfill my 2009 resolutions....? =\

Wow, it's been more than a month since I last blogged!! June was a pretty hectic month for me with my exams going on. Thank God that it went smoothly and I was able to answer the questions. The results will be released on 17th July, so I'm hoping for the best and trusting in God. I'm having hols now and rotting at home! I feel so unproductive most of the time! Well, it'll be ending soon anyway as the new semester begins on 20th July, which is in a couple of weeks.

Obviously many things have happened for the past month; the good, the bad and the exciting. I am just extremely glad to see that my cell group has been in good progress! And in some ways there is growth and I can see that we are more bonded (: Plus, I am just overjoyed that Simin has rededicated her life back to Christ and has been attending service and even our prayer meeting despite her busy schedule. I'm just continuing to pray that she will feel so belonged to 480 and part of our family. This Saturday, Jaya is coming for service too!! Yayness! =D Furthermore, I feel so proud that Jianchao and Sam brought friends to the badminton tournament past Sunday, and Angela's friend, Heidi was really open and fun to talk to. Let's just continue to pray for a mightier harvest and that our vision shall come to pass!

What else... Oh yes, dearest Joshua's birthday certainly kept me busy in June. Thank God for increased capacity that in the midst of my revision I was able to plan his 21st birthday bash with Jeremy. Thankfully, Mr. High Expectations enjoyed the party and everything went smoothly! We all had fun and it was nice knowing his friends and people from SOT. Josh was really touched and appreciated Jeremy and I; he even gave me a really cute photo frame which is now proudly displayed in my room. It always feels good to be a blesser and serve others, especially friends whom I treasure. Speaking of which, the next party to help out at is Denise's, which is another opportunity to be a blesser and love people more. I guess all these party planning sets my foundation to be in the PR and events management field in the future! Haha!

As for the bad, despite going through a financial wilderness, I am continuing to believe that I will get out of the valley soon and live in abundance. Something which impacted me through the Songs of Solomon bible study series was loving God and trusting in Him even when we go through trials and wilderness. So yup, I will live by faith, prayer and fasting (something which I ought to improve on! Crucify my flesh!). Thank God that my mum's out of her financial wilderness as she quit her job approximately a month ago. Now she seems happier at her current job. However, I am just rather worried about her health as a few weeks ago the doctor diagnosed that she is showing symptoms of a mild stroke. Her headaches and numbness of her cheek and arm areas are reducing, but yeah, I just have to continue to pray for her healing. Praise God that she's been coming for service for almost two months now and next Friday will be her first cgm!!!! *applause*

In the topic of healing, my eczema condition is evidently improving!!!!! All thanks to my ultimate doctor in Heaven - my Jehovah Rapha and of course, my cell group members' prayers (it was one of my prayer request =P)! Indeed, this year WILL be the year that I receive my COMPLETE healing ((: Wahahs!

What else... Oh, the session with Rev. Dr. Bernard on leadership last night was extremely impactful and mind-blowing. Certainly God was speaking to the whole church through him. I can't wait for a more awesome service with him this weekend. Alright, with my attempt to meet my goal weight (argh), I'm going off to jog now. Man, I think I have to jog doubly hard to prepare to face all the intake of the calories during tomorrow's steamboat dinner xD I am soo looking forward to finally having dinner with Elyn after what feels like eons!!! Furthermore, we'll be heading back to where 331 had our first CNY steamboat dinner last year!! So nostalgic! Haha. Can't wait for cgm this Friday as well, especially after 6 weeks of BS and prayer meeting. Okay, enough typing, and start jogging!!! =P

Praise God! I'm healed! Pain, fever and diarrhea are now left behind! Now it is time to get back to work; to begin my revision and mugging; to focus and put faith into works; time to be urgent in building His kingdom and the lives of His people. Tuesday night's rendezvous was quite a wake up call, but changes are always good and we are all believing and running with Rou's vision! Facing changes, I need to stretch myself even further and increase my capacity. If it is not out of love, what other reasons are there...? Need to be a more effective love channel; to love and to care. Ultimately, it all boils down to basics. We can overcome this! Not to be a sack of potatoes but a flock of geese (Haha! Dearest Rouxin's analogy is so adorable ^^) It is time to put on the armour and implement PFF!!!

Be very strong and courageous, for I am with you wherever you go...

Recuperation...

It has been five days since my surgery... Been rotting at home and doing absolutely nothing! Had such a boring Sunday ): I was cooped up at home instead of joining the 480-ians for pool. Whine whine... Though thank God that my recovery has been speedy; I'm able to talk more, but still can't fully smile nor laugh, which is an agonising struggle for me! The painkiller is making me groggy and my stomach feeling a little funny >< I hate it when my body doesn't allow me to do more fruitful things. I have so many things to do! For one thing, I HAVE TO and MUST begin my revision as well as my final Journ assignment... I'm starting to feel on th edge about my upcoming exams now =S Ahh... I can't think much and I'm feeling a little feverish now =| God, let there not be any infection; make me well! I'm praying that I'll be much, much better so I can have fun with my spiritual family tonight! Mien's suggesting that we head down to Holland Village! Ramen~~ At least I can have that! Hahas. Yeah, the texture of my food is getting more solid. But still... I miss chocolate T-T And you know what I truly, truly miss the most? This surprises me as well... I miss praying! Especially in the Spirit! )):

I confess that I WILL RECOVER by tonight!!!! D=

Just a random thought which came into my mind... Should I go back to dance? =\ With all the commitments and rehersals... Will I be able to juggle?

Another random topic: Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Harris is a totally awesome book! I'm so blessed by the book and am glad that I bought it. It has completely altered my perception on the issue of relationship. One particular thing which impacted me the most was it is not about "this is the man that I want, but rather a man whom I can follow." Deepness...

Instead of being at Riverwalk right now, here I am, immersing myself in the virtual cyberspace. Man, I don't like to miss cgms ): Sadly, though my spirit is willing, my flesh is weak ):

I had my wisdom teeth surgery this morning. Gosh, it was agonising! It didn't hurt actually, I'm not in pain either (thank God for my high threshold for pain), it's just that it is so, so uncomfortable; I can still taste a little blood, I'm swollen like a pumpkin, I can hardly talk and I can't have any solid food. Argh.

The first step during the surgery was to of course to numb my mouth via aneasthesia. Geez, there were so many number jabs!!! Like four or five I think. And one particularly "struck" my nerve and that was absolutely unpleasant >< So a few minutes later, after the aneasthesia kicks in, she then extracted my top tooth. While she was using the forceps and applying force, I was seriously calling out to Jesus repeatedly xD The top one came out easily but the worst part was when she moved on to the bottom one which was verging on decay. It took her nearly an hour O.O My jaw hurt when she was using her might and strenght to pull it out. It wasn't good news as according to the dentist, my roots were attached to my bone. Yikes. Throughout the whole time, I kept praying like mad! I knew God was with me throughout the whole surgery (: I was so relieved when she finally stiched up the wound. It was my first stichting ever.

I was thinking to myself, if I can survive this, bring on the braces! Lols. Or will this be the beginning of my painful journey... Ahh... So daunting. But honestly, this is not that bad and quite painless even when the aneasthesia wore off. However... I want to eat!!!! I only had like a bowl of cold porridge today =.= Anyway, another thing which struck me was that my friends did care and texted me (: Want to thank all of them for their prayers too (: Well, I'm continuing to pray that the swell will subside so I'm able to go to service tomorrow. Lay hands~!

Indescribable

Just a quick one to show how God never fails to amaze me more... ((:

Today was my very, very first time giving bible study!!! =O And my dear guinea pig was Melissa!! Hahahas. She's a sweet gal ^^ We managed to get a quiet spot at Long John's located at Central, and it struck me that just approximately a year ago, that was the exact same location which I received bible study! Wow... It just amazes me at how much God has use me and how much Holy Spirit has helped me to grow. Indeed, I feel so honoured to serve Him and His people (: So initially I was extremely nervous! I could feel that my heart was pounding and my voice was quite shaky. It's not Mel who made me nervy, it's just me and my sometimes-perfectionist-inner-me. Hahas. Always wants everything to be smooth and perfect. Nevertheless, as I prayed for wisdom and my desire to impart, everything just flows =D It definitely wasn't me; it was totally Him in and through me (: So yeah, it was such a frutiful time... Thank God that His presence was felt and that I managed to impart with examples of how God changed me and my experiences. Additionally, without a teacher's guide, I used those extra verses and notes which I jotted down to teach further. Yay, being hardworking last year did pays off =PP Muahas. But truly, I can't emphasise enough that it wasn't my own ability but His (: Also thankful that I have more opportunity to bond with Mel more.

Afterwhich, it was cell group meeting! Something which I look forward to weekly (: I was extremely impacted. The sermon was in conjunction to my desire for healing of my long-suffering of my eczema. Man, I cried like a baby!! I did not cry like this for a super long time! I couldn't help it; when I feel God's presence, I cry xD Plus, with His overwhelming, tangible presence, I cried buckets! Uber thin-skin to God (Josh, I'm thin-skinned to all men too kay, not just certain men!! *humph* Lols =P). Then all the members prayed for my healing as well as for Josh's long-suffering back and neck problems. As they laid their hands upon me, I immediately felt the power of the Spirit and broke into tears again (geez.. haha). Yeah, I believe that this year will be THE year which I will finally say a big GOODBYE to evil-eczema, and hello pretty skirts and shorts. Amen and Hallelujah!!! =DD

It is God's divine will that I will be in good health so to be a more efficient vessel for Him (((: In Jesus's name! ^^ I LOVE YOU!!