A Month of Contemplating

My blog posting frequency is really decreasing... I did not go to work today. I NEED rest, as suddenly I caught a runny nose and slight fever. But by His stripes and grace, I will be healed =)

Well, October has been a month of contemplation. Everything in my life has been great and I'm thankful for God's blessings. But, so many things just makes me wonder and bugging God: "what am I good at??? What do You want me to do in this earth???" Work is getting stagnent.. I know that I can do more than what I am doing now. I had to wear a costume which made me feel like a brainless object and some people really treated us disrespectfully. I saw the real side of this fallen world. As for schoolwork, no matter how hard I tried, I just get Pass or Credit. Am I not trying hard enough. Shot To Fame was pretty much a disaster xD Got rejected of course. Ahahaha. But on the positive side, I had TONNES of fun with Sam and Khoon Fai while practicising, and got to know more people in church. Perhaps we had TOO much fun goofing around instead of practising... We weren't that serious anyway. Heh. But big big CONGRATS to TheFocus!! Woohoo!! They were awesome! And Jason, their lead vocalist received Christ becuase of this event. Praise God! I hope they win!!! But the other two bands who got in are super good too.. To the extend of being professionals. This got me thinking though.... Seriously, what am I good at??? What are the talents that I have been given which can make me the salt of the earth, light of the world and a history maker? God...?? Talk to me... Your voice and calling seem so far away sometimes... I want to be so close to You Dad.

A week of facing stress in the marketplace makes me appreciate W331 and CHC even more. I look forward to see my dearest people every week. Without God's touch and their friendship, I really can't persevere. Edge night and service rocked! Abba Father definately spoked to everyone of us. He ensured me that I am precious in His eyes. Thanks for this wonderful honour.
Exams are coming up... So I really need to concentrate and get down to studying hard! Though demoralised, I trust in Him that He'll do the rest :)

StillBrainstormin' and TheFocus. Muahahaha. Potae, Jason, Stany and Eugene rocked the house man!

I will not give up. Give me the anointing so I can be just as creative as You, my Elohim. I will forever cling on to the cross and endure the hardships in this race and set my eyes on the pearly gates, my crown, my palace and finally seeing You and bowing down at Your throne (=