The Cross You're Carrying

This email really spoke to me and got me thinking =)

We often complain about the cross we bear but don't realize it is preparing us for the dip in the road that God can see and we can't.

Whatever your cross, whatever your pain,there will always be sunshine, after the rain....Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall;But God's always ready, to answer your call....

He knows every heartache, sees every tear,a word from His lips, can calm every fear...Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night. But suddenly vanish, dawn's early light...

The Savior is waiting, somewhere above,to give you His grace, and send you His love...

God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage.

A Month of Contemplating

My blog posting frequency is really decreasing... I did not go to work today. I NEED rest, as suddenly I caught a runny nose and slight fever. But by His stripes and grace, I will be healed =)

Well, October has been a month of contemplation. Everything in my life has been great and I'm thankful for God's blessings. But, so many things just makes me wonder and bugging God: "what am I good at??? What do You want me to do in this earth???" Work is getting stagnent.. I know that I can do more than what I am doing now. I had to wear a costume which made me feel like a brainless object and some people really treated us disrespectfully. I saw the real side of this fallen world. As for schoolwork, no matter how hard I tried, I just get Pass or Credit. Am I not trying hard enough. Shot To Fame was pretty much a disaster xD Got rejected of course. Ahahaha. But on the positive side, I had TONNES of fun with Sam and Khoon Fai while practicising, and got to know more people in church. Perhaps we had TOO much fun goofing around instead of practising... We weren't that serious anyway. Heh. But big big CONGRATS to TheFocus!! Woohoo!! They were awesome! And Jason, their lead vocalist received Christ becuase of this event. Praise God! I hope they win!!! But the other two bands who got in are super good too.. To the extend of being professionals. This got me thinking though.... Seriously, what am I good at??? What are the talents that I have been given which can make me the salt of the earth, light of the world and a history maker? God...?? Talk to me... Your voice and calling seem so far away sometimes... I want to be so close to You Dad.

A week of facing stress in the marketplace makes me appreciate W331 and CHC even more. I look forward to see my dearest people every week. Without God's touch and their friendship, I really can't persevere. Edge night and service rocked! Abba Father definately spoked to everyone of us. He ensured me that I am precious in His eyes. Thanks for this wonderful honour.
Exams are coming up... So I really need to concentrate and get down to studying hard! Though demoralised, I trust in Him that He'll do the rest :)

StillBrainstormin' and TheFocus. Muahahaha. Potae, Jason, Stany and Eugene rocked the house man!

I will not give up. Give me the anointing so I can be just as creative as You, my Elohim. I will forever cling on to the cross and endure the hardships in this race and set my eyes on the pearly gates, my crown, my palace and finally seeing You and bowing down at Your throne (=

This Is A Blog Entry... Tadaaa!

Okay, this blog hasn’t been updated for a really, really, really LONG time! I’ve been really occupied with many things. I’m juggling with church, school and work. SOOOO many events and things has happened in the past few weeks, wonderful and great things of course! =D

Things at work have been rather good, am getting busier, and more familiarised with my job scope and the company as well. My boss is really nice and thank God that she has really been treating me so well, God’s favour is indeed very strong. Well, now that I’m working and studying at the same time, I feel that I’m being more fruitful; more motivation to do my assignments earlier before the deadline. And all these are not my own ability, but His ability in me :)

Been serving in children’s church for a few times and really had fun serving God =D The kids were of course super cute! But there are some who are....... *shake head and sigh* Hahaha.. Well, kids will be kids. But yeah, probably this is God’s ministry for me bah (=
Church has been AWESOME!! This is the season of Arise and Build, so Pastor Kong’s sermons are even more impactful and powerful than ever! God’s presence is always extremely strong and tangible in His house, aka the audi. He answered my prayer beyond my expectations! Last week, I wrote down what are the blessings that I want Him to give me, the moment I wrote that ‘full-stop’, I immediately started to weep so hard. Tears kept on rolling as I heard Holy Spirit spoke to me that yes, my prayers will be answered. And indeed, PRAISE the Lord, they are. My pay is beyond my expectations! And am very happy with the amount =D Thank you Abba Father. You NEVER fail me ^^

My cell group are the lovely people whom I look forward to meeting with every week. I LOVE, LOVE all of them!! They are great Godly people. So here are some of the beautiful pics of us beautiful God-men. Wahahahahaha.

Aww... W331!! This is the current wallpaper for my Creative Zen ^^

Like stupid fringe... get away! xD We went to Minds Cafe and we had TONS of fun!!

Chris's ridiculously huge pair of specs!! She is one of those few people in this planet who can carry this specs off well! Hahah! This was taken after CHC's first ever youth service *cheer* *clap* - The Edge!

Geez... I look all pinched up xD Was trying to control my laughter.

Oh, oh, I managed to drag Sam [Chew] to be my guitarist at a competition called A Shot To Fame organized by CHC (rules). So yay, we formed a band! Our name is quite lame and really silly but I think it’s the best name we thought at that short time-span. Since we were brainstorming for a name, I had an epiphany: why not call ourselves Brainstormin’?? Sam thought it was funny and that it fits us well and agreed. But later he added “still”, so yes, officially, we and a new band member – Kun Fai – another guitarist are called…….. StillBrainstormin’!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Funnay, I know! But isn’t it cute xD xD

So as a vocalist, I had my first training. I was dumbfounded when we had to sing! When it was my turn, my left hand literally was trembling and while holding the lyrics sheet, it was shaking. Laughs. I was really nervous. But thank God the trainer commented that it was good and I have good dynamics =) But need to work a few emphasises to add in more emotion… Well, hope that by God’s grace, StillBrainstormin’ can get through the auditions and into the finals. To really glorify Him with the talents that He has given unto us :)

Come support if…. Ahem, be positive… I mean, WHEN we make it!! Lol. Okay?? =D

"Your Faithful Child"

A song which says it all... =)

Imagine living without
Without Your love
My life would tumble down
My joy will cease
I will never be able
To be who I am, where I am

Chorus
I love You
I love You Lord
I love You
With all of me
Who am I that You love me so
I wanna lay down my life
And be called Your faithful child

You hold my world in,
In Your hands
I trust in You Father
Every step of the way
I believe that You are
Always there, carrying me

Bridge
I will follow You O God
Even if people call me fool
I will never stop reaching out to You

Rejoice in Every Single Thing

Nothing special has been going on... Things has been good; everything's been smooth-sailing; am hanging in there in my assignments and work because of His strenght and endurance. Am being blessed abundantly; everything's peaceful. Indeed, God is my peace. Am closer with Him than ever; receiving revelations; gaining more underdstanding in the Word; learn more about life and my weaknesses.

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and celebrate.

Oh, I have low iron level. Found that out when I finally gotten the guts to go donate blood. Shucks... I got free iron tablets though xD But still haven't take any... Ah well. Dor went for facial session with me today. Breakthrough for her!! Ahahaha. The pain.... The torture... A monthly sacrifice I must go through to have nice complexion. Well, what's in the inward must shine onto the outward. Amen? =D

I Feel..... Oh So Blessed

I can't say 'thank yous' for trillion, kezilions times enough to You. Your love and blessing to me are so overwhelming. Your embrace is amazing; just to feel Your touch again make me feel like no one compares to You; no fathers are better than You. All these are not by coincidences or by my own strenght, but by the works of Your Spirit.


Since I've gotten the job, my family has been so supportive. My mom blessed me with several office wears, and more $$! =D She's really been there to advice me on the working environment, and she even prayed for me... And a mother's prayer for her child is truly powerful. I LOVE YOU MOM!! I thank God everyday that you are my mummy. Yes, no one's perfect but you've been fulfilling your role as a wonderful mom ^^


Today was the first day of work. After a rather long time, I woke up at 7am. Hehe... No more staying up late from now onwards =( Again, woke up like zombie panda, cos slept at 2am last night. But I was excited to go to work. However, to dress up, make up and walk around in heels (standing all the way from Woodlands to Chinatown... in HEELS. Pure torture...) are a chore. Though I have to admit, the feeling's gooood. Hahah. I feel so grown up. Heh. Work was great. I had to do paperwork, sorting out mails/emails, contact couriers (the first time!), pick up calls, filing, try my best to exhibit servanthood and pay attention to nitty-gritty details. Well, start with small and humble beginnings. Servanthood will open up my destiny! My boss is so nice! And so is other colleagues; they are friendly as I am just a rookie. And Joanna, who is mentoring me as a senior really guided me and preped me so well. I learnt alot in one day. I really enjoyed myself and applied my fetish for organising paperwork. Mmmm... Organising... Laughs. Can't wait to go beyond the admin work and really get involve in the marketing/comms aspect to gain knowledge and application :) Really thank God for such favour of men, for His wisdom upon me, and His discernment. Day 2 begins in 11 hours...


All I desire is to make You so proud of me; to shine for You; to glorify You; that I will be an honourable daughter in Your eyes; that one day when I see You face to face and finally embrace You in my arms, that one sentence from You will make everything worthwhile - "well done, My good and faithful servant." O, how my soul longs for that day.

I Hate Goodbyes

Sammy has left the building (I just have to add in this cheesy line)... I mean, Singapore. He's off to Taipei for SIX months for his attachment. SIX months without my dear little brother :( Oh man.. I miss him already. He's been such a close friend to me. Us two crazy people constantly laughing and confiding in each other in our problems. Great.. Now I feel like crying. Managed not to cry while sending him off at the airport this morning. I felt so sad while seeing him leaving from the checkpoint to board the plane. Then, during lunch at Popeye's with the rest of the gang, it felt weird without his presence there with us. I could feel my tears welling up while queing to buy the food; him not being there during service also felt like something's amiss. Argh! I sound so emo xD


I sound like I'm holding him back. Haha. But, it's a great opportunity and experience for him. I wish I have the chance to go on-campus at Aussie.. Now thinking that how much I'm gonna miss my family, spiritual family (esp!!) and my dear friends, perhaps it's best I stick around. Or else I'll be emo again, and fill 10 buckets up with my salty tears.

Love ya dik Sammy! God's with you every step of the way! Stay strong yea! HUGS~